It’s strange how you can be on a roll, thinking nothing can knock you off your steady balance, all you’re thinking about is today and tommorow and then something from the past comes and starts shoving. There’s nothing from my past that haunts me, but there are definitely some things I wish I could keep behind me. This part of my past that has come creeping back from nowhere isn’t exactly unwelcome, it’s just not easy to take in because there’s a trust issue. The last time I tried to welcome this part of my life back in, I was bitten and it hurt for a while, and then I just started to put it behind me until things started to get really wonderful in my life. Sure, I get stressed out a lot these days, that’s natural i’m a college student. But all in all i’m really happy with my life. I have the perfect girl in my life, I don’t mean she’s perfect as a person all around but you know what she is perfect for me, and i’m happy and i’m in love with her. I also have my goals and ambitions which seem to be a success so far, or at least leading up to a success. I’m financially secure, I have a pretty good job considering what point in my life i’m in, and i’m living in my dreams. So why would I let something from the past bother me? I guess it must have been something really important to me, I guess my heart must have been really broken and when the bones are broken once they fracture easier later on. This seems to be something that happens to me. My last couple of relationships with women have resulted in painful break-ups, and we went months without talking between those times. But when we started talking again, we were like adults and could talk about it. Now this current situation i’m talking about isn’t about an old girlfriend, it’s about something else. But I think i’m going to leave it where it’s been for the last few years, in the past. I’ve got too many other things to worry about right now, and i’m not letting anything get in my way. Well enough of my venting, my life can be so weird sometimes. But hey, if i’d grown up normally I probably wouldn’t like who I am like some of my classmates at college who have a million body piercings and wear black and want to kill themselves. Well, let’s not go that far. About the website, added some stuff to the portfolio, just some recent projects. Be sure to check out the magazine covers, they turned out pretty nice. I also put up the 3D model of the Posi Lock sign, which also turned out pretty nice. Not much else is new. A new and improved navigation system for the site is in the works, not sure if i’ll even use it though. I’ve got some busy days ahead. Until next time, i’ll leave you with a quote that helps in this time of my tension.
“O there are Voices of the Past, Links of a broken chain, Wings that can bear me back to Times, Which cannot come again; Yet God forbid that I should lose the echoes that remain!” – Adelaide Anne Procter, Voices of the Past.
